Good for you, you really had broken the ice into pieces.
Bad for me, i need a very long time to refreeze it....

shit why the hell do i feel like i have lost something forever....

不应该这样的，不应该心痛的。

每次答应自己别想了，可是每次都办不到。

gnot nix

关心是因为真的担心了，不是因为内疚。

真的对不起，请你相信我，我是无意的。

也许你说的对，总有一天我会被别人如此伤害。

naf

圣诞节别那么快到好吗？。。我剩下的时间不多了。

下着雪的夜晚，把空气都结成冰； 连呼吸都感觉不到一丝的热情。

在十字路口等待，

等待下一个禄灯。

几时开始学会不再期待。。

Dream Again

A chilly night,

a blurry head,

tons of work,

a starless sky,

a clear mind,

one mistake,

both are just the same..

why even bother figuring it out?

a dumb smile, smiling at a stupid decision...

打开窗户让孤单透气
这一间屋子 如此密闭
欢呼声仍飘在空气里
像空无一人一样华丽
渐渐失去知觉, 就当做是种自我逃避

盘旋在夜晚的高空里

夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地？

sunday morning made it a lot better..

dont hold on to things you have to let go

treasure the things that came back after you abandoned it so many times..

you take a hit, fall down, you tell yourself that everything is fine and you get back up..

your are on your own now..its already been expected.. like a vip on a guest list..

0 度的午夜跟我现在的心情一样...

在錯誤的時間相遇

知道這個故事的結局，或者選擇說出來，或者裝作不知道，萬不要欲言又止。有時候留給別人的傷害，選擇沉默比選擇坦白要痛多?

站在窗前，看着3度的夜晚，傻笑，笑自己为什么那么傻......

只不过是别人故事里的路过者？

spent one whole month adjusting,

spent one day ruined something i treasure, which i reli regret..sorry..

plan to spend some more time learning things outside of the textbooks,

and a little more time figuring out what my heart reli wants.

一个人生活最怕跌到和生病

每一次如果知道夜归，出门的时候都会把灯开着。

不知不觉养成了喝茶的习惯。

做事情不用想太多。

照顾好自己就够了。

原来两个世界的我，差距不小

如果朋友只是个借口，那事实是什么？

用平淡的心面对一切以为可以过的更好，

换来的只是无味的感情？

一个人的生活；

什么都不用管。。

想出去就走人， 想静一静就把门锁上眺望宁静的城市。

可是有时候会莫名奇妙地担心一个人。

sometimes i wonder, leaving it alone without doing anything,

what will happen to it?

the only place and time that;

can clear my mind off everything

and take a break from what i am in

is the night view together with a gentle breeze

beside the river..

its started to bend....

show your true face only to those who matters

its always different when you have heard both side of the story...

慢慢的开始恢复以前一个人的生活。

这一次应该没那么简单。

still not fast enough

glad that i have met you my friend.

thanks for everything and i will surely remember....

soon, i'm gonna start all over again from the beginning.

take it light, start from zero.

since when believing in someone or something became so hard..?

不再想,就什么都可以放下？

i dont need another story, i am writting mine.

学着放手

true, happy ending happens but its just because its not the conclusion yet..

time to get out =)

sometimes, some things and someone is just too special to forget..

有时候看着镜子，笑自己太傻。

多希望思绪可以像闹钟一样，按以下就停。

忘了怎么开心地笑

不想再变成一个透明的石头。。

一边手掌握的是一个人无法改变的命运，

另一边则是自己有百分百的控制选择与决定。

每个人都必须用双手打造属于自己的故事。

如果有一天外边的海浪大了，希望有个避风港让我避一避。

剩下的时间不多了

心情还是一样，没感觉

有时候真的怀疑，她说我没感情是个事实。

奇怪，也不知道从几时开始会想想她说的话。

希望黑白画面只是个开始；它就像黑夜，结局留在最后。

the hard part is reaching out to get it

but the harder part is letting it go..

sometimes it really feels like an empty shell covered with a thin layer of ice

冷漠的世界藏着无比的寂寞。。

结了冰，一切会似乎停了下来。。

你知道吗？

有时候还真的期待下一个季节的到来。

sometimes i really think its just a joke

other times i think is me thinking too much

normally i would just ignore it..

however ignoring is not the solution..

it only makes things go from bad to worse

the surroundings are always dark

but there is a lighter in your hand

to torch it up or not is your choice

the night is not eternal

it always ends at day break

my story just started...wish me luck

真的一开始就注定要失败？

someone special...

staying up all night..

peeping out the window..

looking at the starless pitch dark night..

hesitating whether to give up or go ahead..

wondering why am i even thinking of this..

thinking of stuffs that would have been..

recollecting every thought..

hoping very hard to somehow find what i have been looking for..

using every luck i have just to get it..

funny i dun really know myself that well..

heart: its wonderful and mysterious yet confusing..

最难了解的人，最后还是自己。

哦？又想太多了吗？

想告诉你很多东西，可是怕会吓了你。。

到底应该怎样说出口？

坐在没有人的角落 我又问自已
究竟应该继续 还是该放弃
没有人能了解我 现在的心情

也许在你眼里 它只是个....

李圣杰 - 靠近

the more i know,

the less i understand about you

i dun even know wat is happening anymore

try and get hurt or not try and regret?

got to admit, sometimes u read me like an open book.

when the line in between...gets blurry....

everything in my mind is in a mess...

Nickelback - If Today Was Your Last Day

My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day
and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
If today was your last day

Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the prize is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you'll never live it twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life

明明有机会转身，掉头走人。可是为什么我没那么做？

should have locked it up right from the start.

Hopefully its not too late.....

Or locking it up is just another mistake?

forgot how to smile

i could really use a wish right now

seriously need something to distract myself...hopes this works..

you gave me a ticket to an unknown destination

damn..something kept me up the whole night thinking

what the hell i am thinking of...shit...

this kind of feeling ..i do not even recognize it..

it reli blurs my thoughts and messes up my head..

now i dont even know what to do next..

i think the question is : Should i?

or in other words

CAN I?

fast isn't fast enough,

far is still too near,

push the limit.

When you touch bottom, only then will the truth be uncovered

it is important to know who means what to you

life itself is the best comedian ever.

you will only know what a place means to you, when you already left it

大城市，小角色。

silence of the night aint that bad at all...

again he taught he something:

to virtually run through not just major things, but each and every detail in life.

to break a barrier, you really have to reach your limit surpass it and then move on.

再停下来想想
该有的资料已经足够
盘算着进行中的游戏
结局已经定下了

知道是时候放下，掉头走了
回到一个我设计让自己不受伤害的世界
终于记得为什么当初夺在里头

最后我还是习惯一个人的生活

its just another day

there always things to do
things that keeps us waiting
things that will make us nervous

for me,
its just another thing to do
its just another day ..

nothing can control time, but time affects everything.

in life, u cant juz apply for an extension juz to have more time

times up meaning times up le

cant do anything about it

tats y appreciation is very important

being able to appreciatiate will become a factor of regreting or not later.

und?

我不懂结局是怎样，

可是我真的希望我不后悔做出这样的决定。。

midnight

半夜 1：30

突然没心读书，

看着窗外无星的夜空，

吹着雨后的凉风，头脑又开始想了。

最近的心情跟现在的气候蛮象，都是空空荡荡，冰凉的。

他说的一切都是对的，每一次都是经过一段时间我才明白。

他说到最后，我还是得一个人出去。

想了想，没错，还是靠自己最踏实。

他们说得一切恐怕我不够时间去明白。

朋友都问，时间快到了

有什么感觉？

老实的答案：没感觉

可能是自己已经懂了，时间到就应该要走，不能够原地停留不动。

可是，时间不停的在走，还真的有够快。

奇怪，又想到她。

真不懂最近自己在搞什么。。

有时恨不得在脑袋里装个闹钟，按一下停，可以不想别的。

心情： 无色

Sorry..

dunno y i m saying this...

juz wanted to say im sorry..

i din intent to make it turn out this way...

u will find someone better.... 1/1/10 (ry)

到了最后还是选择不理。

你应该不看我写的东西了。

可是我真的不懂该继续还是该离开。

雨水一滴一滴的打在脸上，

仿佛在尝试着要把我叫醒；

从一个没有表情，冷酷，无情的世界叫醒；

明明能够感觉到自己的心跳，

可是感情总是有办法被硬生生地封锁，

这到底是好是坏，

自己再也不能够给一个明确的答案。

我喜欢运动，

唯一的原应是：

运动时，能够感觉到自己的心跳，证明自己踏实的活着

.....只不过是..... 生命中的过客

unexpected

sometimes things are just purely unexpected..
what is coming out of it is really unpredictable..

sometimes things just happen..
and people might get hurt..

those getting hurt will hate it, curse it..
but its life..
buckle up, sit tight and ride thru it..
everything is gonna be fine..

head or heart

between the two..

both are equally important..

head or heart

head= logical thinking

heart= intuitions and emotions

what is your choice?

its not that simple

爱上夜的黑，
因为喜欢夜晚的宁静。

一个选择有三个做法：
知道了，还是继续下去
知道了，开始行动
知道了，可是选择不管

没那么简单，
事情总是会比想像中复杂，难搞。

有时候，想了再想，
总觉得，所遇见的可能是巧合，也可能是被安排的。

时间无情的在走，
限期就快到了，还是想不出办法。

到了某个时期，
重要的仿佛都无关痛痒了，
反而，平时觉得不怎么要紧的，到了最后变成最珍贵的回忆。

棋子

想走出你控制的领域
却走近你安排的战局
我没有坚强的防备
也没有后路可以退
想逃离你布下的陷阱
却陷入了另一个困境
我没有决定输赢的勇气
也没有逃脱的幸运
我像是一颗棋
进退任由你决定
我不是你眼中唯一将领
却是不起眼的小兵
我像是一颗棋子
来去全不由自己
举手无回你从不曾犹豫
我却受控在你手里

layering

things are not always what it seems like
words are not always what it sounds like

third person point of view

一个人可以镇定，理智地给一个合理，有逻辑的意见。。
但是当那件事情发生在他身上时，他在也不能够冷静地想想。。
为什么，当事情发生在自己身上时，
每一次都有无理的理由不做出明智的决定？

b u s y

in the midst of everything ..
the most important part ..
is the need to find time to take a deep breath ..
look ahead ..
and continue ..

juz another road

i took the option out of curiosity..
but not just curiosity..
rather i took it to equip myself..
or i just wanted to know more...
may be its just because its something i would like to do..
as predicted..
but i am glad i made that choice..
after all no pain no gain..

for you its a stroll in the park, but for me..its juz another bumpy road i have to travel..

looks like

looks like i will be stuck in the cold world for quite some time...
or may b i m the one who chooses to be here?

现在才明白

我到了现在才明白：
为什么第三遍的茶最好喝。。
为什么退路和选择都一样重要。。

十字路口

现在我在一个十字路口，没有路牌，没有人影，只有个路灯。向左向右，向前向后，我该往那个方向走？

help

sometime ago somebody asked me..:
if you had a choice,
would you choose to help people or being helped by others?
the natural answer will be the first.
the person than told me, everybody will surely take care of themselves first, before helping others..
if you are in trouble, will you still help somebody ? he asked..

however, on the other hand..
if u chose to be helped by others, u will also have something to lose..
to lose "an opportunity"...
a chance to learn and to gain something new..
and may be this will help you solve your own problem..

so issit true?
or what will your choice be?

ice

timing..

在重要关头出现，
在平常时刻消失不见。

天空

望着碧蓝的天空，是不是可以暂时忘掉一切烦恼呢？

在漆黑的夜里看着天上无数的星星，是不是可以带给我片刻的宁静？

xD?

looks like i need to post smtg lighter...haha..

for now my life is quite calm...

although sometimes its treacherous...

i think i cn still handle it...

its my life after all xD....

冰冷

为了不再让自己受伤。。

为了保护自己。。

我决定把自己锁在一个冰冷的世界。。

没有感情。。

没有危险。。

可是在这个世界久了。。

心里也开始觉得凉凉的。。

想出来晒晒温暖的太阳。。

但是。。

这次就连自己也被困在这世界里头。。

谁能告诉我。。下一步该怎么走。。。。。

禮物

你走吧 不需要理由
忘掉 彼此重新來過
不愛了嗎 隨口問問我
發現 你的手在顫抖
謊言剪碎了承諾
連解釋 都不說
你也許恨過我
傷了我 怕了我
也應該愛過我

痛苦是你給的禮物
打開讓記憶更清楚
只好再假裝快樂緊緊的綁住
眼淚是你給的禮物
地址是不怎麼幸福
送到無法相愛的 國度
我會努力比你更幸福

illogical

the laz two years taught me a lot..

it taught me everythin..

both good and bad..

moz importantly it taught me to do things logically..

but this time i broke that rule..

the rule that i established myself to prevent my self from getting hurt again..

i broken the basic rule..

wat will happen next?

i dun have any idea..

y did i broke the rule? for wat?

again i have no idea..

is it worth going against a basic rule?

i dun noe..

how will this end?

i dun hav a damn idea..

i only hope..this time..i broken the rule for the rite reasons....

the road not taken

Robert Frost (1874–1963). Mountain Interval. 1920.

1. The Road Not Taken

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;	5
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,	10
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.	15
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

its a time to make a choice..

i choose to take the road less taken...

in life.. we do not take risk..we manage risk..

10 years..

there are only a few decades that one can live through..

when u look back.. the only thing u will do is smile ..

relive the sweet memories..

den its time to move on..

appreciate it....